And now it’s only me again

The past months have not been kind to me. But even in the midst of all the drama, the thing I dread the most comes in less than two months, when your life takes a major shift and you slip even further away from me. I listen to our songs and it feels like my heart is slowly shattering to a thousand irreparable pieces.

Why do I feel like I have to prepare to say goodbye to you? Why does it seem like everything is inching ever so surely out of my reach?

If I asked, would you promise not to disappear from my life? Is that assurance even within your power to give?

I love you so much it hurts when I breathe.